39 yo Straight Beta Submissive Seeks Dominant Male for Humiliati (Olean, NY)

39 yo Straight Beta Submissive Seeks Dominant Male for Humiliati

Hi. I m hoping to find a dominant male in the Olean area for humiliation discipline and general servitude. I am not looking for any kind of sexual interaction right now - if ever - but I may be open to it at some point down the road once trust has been established. For now though I want to focus more on service and humiliation. Though I do have more kinks that I m happy to share if you re interested.While I am straight I have often considered serving a man in a D s dynamic. As a beta-type submissive I recognize that I am inadequate in certain areas. I feel as though I do not measure up as a male. And the idea of being in service to a real man - the very ideal that I myself cannot reach - is very appealing. That being said however I just do not find masculinity attractive and I ve found that this hang-up has prevented me from fully exploring this. I ve tried in the past but nothing has developed. Now I m finally looking to change that.That s why I m looking for someone who can help me get past some of my hesitations and finally fully submit to a man. I d like to find someone who has experience and patience that can provide a discreet environment so that I can explore this part of myself.I want to be humiliated bullied and above all humbled. Make me understand what service is all about despite whatever petty discomfort I may have.Please be safe sane and respectful of limits. I m only looking to meet someone who is intelligent and responsible about these sorts of things (and in general) despite being kinky and cruel behind closed doors.25 please no smokers or drug users. I cannot host but I can travel a reasonable distance.If this is something you think you can help me with I d love to hear from you. Thanks