You know me...you saw me (Naples)

You know me...you saw me

you know what I m about it is a bit unfair since I know almost nothing about you...I would like to say I would miss you after I leave but I can t. Maybe I will miss the protection I took for granted all this time yes. I would like to get to know you but how I drive around I can not believe the level of destruction. The vanity the greed all this for what Who knows...then there are the parasites that stick to me and won t go away. Spreading lies about me simply to humiliate me. Funny I walked away crying and forgetting them and letting them all be they still try to ruin my life. Clear to see our visions of love and freedom are quite different. I thought well as the movie goes it doesn t matter what I thought. I tried to make it better then I tried to get even but in the end here we all are. I do not care about fame material things etc etc a simple studio with a bed and a table would be fine with me but I do need someone. Someone as I am making you to be. Someone to encourage me and to make me do my best simply by being there. I could trust someone again but it has to be the truth and it has to be soon. I have an important decision to make and as much as I try and try again things around here only seem to be getting worst. I hope you will read this I could have sworn I saw you driving down the street once after I reached out to you months ago. Understand 2 things please I do not want others to know but now I have no choice and I am sick so it seems a bit strange to ask someone for a life long commitment if I have little time ahead. Who knows...maybe I am imagining things again. See I stayed. I stayed and I waited for you but what I go through here puts me more often than not in a bad mood and then I close up. I wish I could go somewhere and wait for you but unfortunately ...I have already covered the lone woman theme. Paranoid freaks....anyways. I can not live this way anymore so you do what you want to but I need to think about my health and believe me when I tell you this to me this is hell. I made mistakes yes many yes. Embarrassing yes I can be but I never sought the attention I just truly wanted to be alone. Please forgive me for not understanding when I was younger when there were just a few of us here. You found me time and time again...you were always around that s why I can not forget you that s why I wish I could get to know you. Peace. (thank you -P)