I still hope someone will understand... (Birmingham, AL)

I still hope someone will understand...

I would very much love the chance to live out an experience that I was offered in my youth but was to scared to accept. Life was different in those days. I was also in my teens and lived at home with my parents. I am now a mature fairly successful man who seeks to experience a man. In my teens I was propositioned by an older man who requested a bl-wj-balthough I highly suspected that he was looking for far more. I was scared nervous shy and very unsure of myself in that respect so I made excuses and quickly left. Many years later I still find myself regretting having not submitted to his needs and having what I knew was an experience that I wanted. It is that missed opportunity that has haunted me. I do want to give a blowjob. I want to take a c-ck into my mouth and experience what it feels like to have it grow to its potential to learn to lick and suck and feel the power of its release as It explodes in my mouth just as I m sure that I could have been taught many years ago. I want to serve a man for his pleasure. As I learn perhaps I won t feel the need to be submissive but serving for the pleasure of one who will take control and initiate me into his service seems like the way to learn. I do have a feeling that submissiveness however is the role that I will most enjoy. I am open to the full submissive experience if you are willing to take control and initiate me into all that I have to learn. It will all be new for me but absolutely desired. I have placed a similar ad in the past but would lose hope and remove it after a couple of days due to lack of response. I will be patient now realizing that I have waited a lifetime to finally find the man who will enjoy being served at his pleasure and for his pleasure. I am only looking for one clean understanding man but would consider two who loves to play and will teach me to fulfill his needs. I will be grateful respectful and mindful that I am there to act for your pleasure and to fulfill my long overdue desire to serve and be an instrument for your pleasures. I will do so with enthusiasm and focus on you.. I just want this first experience and then I will see where that leads me. I hope someone understands and will enjoy leading me to his service while fulfilling his own needs.